Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Shake it off

My emotions, good or bad, have controlled my life for as long as I can remember. Depression, fear, and guilt have been my most natural responses when life throws me a curve ball. I curl up in a little ball and hide from the world. The bad thing about this response is I'm hiding from the very thing I want to help change. How can I tell my story when I'm driven by these destructive emotions? The truth is, I can't.

This morning I was drinking my coffee and reading my Bible, asking God to change me. He brings me to a scripture I have read so many times and have hanging by my front door. Joshua 24:15 says to choose this day who you will serve. That's when it hit me. I've been serving my emotions every day. I choose to dwell on depression, guilt, fear, and all the other things I feel on a daily basis instead of dwelling on God. He's the One who knows me and protects me. He is the One who holds my future. All the turmoil I feel inside is made to destroy, not bring life.

So this day I choose God. I choose to let Jesus go deeper than my wounds. I choose to let Him and His Words guide me and leave the rest behind.

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11 comments:

  1. Angiepierce79September 17, 2015 at 6:50 PM

    I absolutely love this ! Very well said. This really touched me. Thank you for being so open.

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  2. Angela DubingerNovember 3, 2015 at 5:24 AM

    Whoa. That'll preach. I struggle with this. Thank you for your vulnerability, openness and courage in your blog.

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    1. Restoring The YearsNovember 3, 2015 at 5:42 AM

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    2. Restoring The YearsNovember 3, 2015 at 5:44 AM

      Thank you so much! I'm just trying to be obedient to the Lord and that is a struggle sometimes!

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  3. UnknownNovember 3, 2015 at 5:50 AM

    I struggle with those same things. It's gotten less over the years as I've soaked in more of God's peace and goodness, but depression, shame and guilt are my default mode.

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    1. Restoring The YearsNovember 3, 2015 at 6:38 AM

      It can be very difficult, but with God we are victorious!

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  4. Andrea MoweryNovember 3, 2015 at 7:19 AM

    This little post spoke to me deeply this morning. I love this gem: 'I choose to let Jesus go deeper than my wounds.' He heals us from the inside out, doesn't he? Thank you for putting thoughts to words today.

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  5. Brianna GeorgeNovember 3, 2015 at 7:29 PM

    Girl you just spoke some freedom there. Well done. :)

    http://unveiledandrevealed.com

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  6. Restoring The YearsNovember 3, 2015 at 7:34 PM

    Thank you. It's all God :)

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  7. UnknownNovember 3, 2015 at 8:08 PM

    Quite relatable. (((((big hugs)))))) I've repented of this many times. Thank you God for being bigger than me and my feelings.

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